Over protection

Yesterday, I realized something important: I'm a difficult person to reach. But this is not because of me myself, but because of the people I have near me. They're few, and really special ones, and that makes them even more important and, what's more, they can feel that importance. It's for this reason that when I start a new relationship of any kind with somebody, this new person has to deal with them. It's not with me. If I want to start that relation, it's because I really fell like it, but then there're some friends that will try to keep my privacy, or who will try to keep me in private. 

Thinking about this stuff, I suddenly realized that they only want to protect me. As I said before, they're so special, so they know me, and they know what I like and dislike, what can I say and what not, what can I stand, and what can't I. The result of this situation is that when I want to approach to someone new, I just have to do it, without any kind of effort concerning my privacy, or even my comfort or health, because I know my friends will take care of that. That feeling is actually really nice. 

On the other hand, it can make the new 'guest' feel uncomfortable, even attacked, but if he thinks that patience is worthy, he'll see his efforts rewarded. 

Fridge

Lately I've been counting up to 10 lots of times. Well. Or I used to. The I realized I had to count up to 100. Didn't work either. So now, I'm trying it out with 1000.

We all know I'm a cold-minded person, so it shouldn't be a hard exercise for me. Don't worry.

Ok, ok...

Today I've realized that I maybe am its personal handkerchief.
But, you know... 'Cause I want in someway. This doesn't mean it's really OK.
But I'm not alone.

Fuck social needs of human beings.